UNIMAS: Low class,a waste of time,energy and ringgit Malaysia.

The title,is it true?
YES.
Why???

Wait,who say yes?
A lot of people.
They:
*posses a rather narrow mind.
*think of deserving much better blessings.
*are seeking some will-be-forgotten-soon-enough fame.
*look down at you. yes,you,UNIMAS student.
*have never been there.

This afternoon,I had a conversation with my boss.

Boss: Where are you studying? What course?
Me: UNIMAS. Just finishing foundation.
Boss: Haiyaa,waste time la you. Cheap,everyone can go there. You come out later,no company will recognise you. Better you mintak the Bakun thing,loan some money and study overseas. Like my sister's daughter,she went to Russia,now she's a doctor in KL.
Me: Excuse me,I differed an offer to US. If I do well,I'm working with *****. You ever study there meh? I don't give your niece a dang! (All shouted in my enraging heart)

The actual thing I did was nodding and walked out of the room. When I was outside,I began to think that I should have said so. What pulled me not to do so was some small patience which I learnt from UNIMAS. :)

Should I answered him so,ada kena buang kerja,then I will make bad the name of papa mama and papa mama might lose a friend,the boss. And back home,I will be blamed. But,if this happens another time,I can't guarantee keeping my big mouth shut. :P

So yeah,you've never been there then what makes you say such things? At least provide me with some evidence if it's true. Those were mere immatured thoughts of you. Anyway,you're still my boss,if you ask me to clear the dustbin I'd still go. =,=

Ada duhal nyimpan gamba UNIMAS. Selalu main basikal rah jambatan ya. hehe.

UNIMAS Gemilang.

p/s: to unimas student,forget about what you know behind the bridge. but do learn from it. :)

gamba diambil oleh Jacob Minit,pake hape nya.

After-school-life. Part 1.

It's just another thing which I should posted months ago. Thanks for the eagerness that was somehow injected into me that I finally find a time to write about this. Yeay me!

As you grow OLDER,you began to understand more,you see things deeper and you began to define appreciation in a higher price.

Okay,you can forget the crap upside. I'm just missing my friends. My after-school-life friends.

Gene,coolest member in the pack. :)

Azman and Abul.  :D

Babai Eus and ME! :D

Pa nangga2 ah? **mak o... Min.

Hi kitak!!! Adzim

Hampir terlupak ngn sekor tok. tok la roomate sebenar aku. M44. selalu kena buli ngn aku. haha.

hi roomie! Christ

I miss you all so much. I wish we were in Seroja again. M28,M29.

:')

First day working.

It's a sudden eagerness to post something on my blog. Ever since created,I didn't write much. Keep too much things to myself,up to not telling em in a mere blog. 20th July 2011,my very first day at work. I don't really know what my job is,as the manager said,they need more people because the hotel has so many reservations this month that the existing workers can't handle the massiveness. So,I'm just helping where I'm needed.

Anyway,I woke up early,prepared myself then went straight away to the hotel with my cousin. She's one of the existing worker. The first day,not so much of a work,not as what I really expected but I'm glad I didn't encounter any awkward social convention nor do I need to deploy any formal diplomatic action,everyone was fine. I hope it last and that I don't mess up.

Regardless everything being so fine,deep inside I'm just so broken. I don't blame my friends if they don't know,I didn't tell them. Why? I don't know. To reverse that,I need to reverse the whole growing process of my life. I wish I can fall into a very deep sleep and not waking up anymore. What a loser.

Excruxiating

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!

A mixture of feelings 2.

It's raining. I'm alone in M44. Trying to close my eyes,forget what happened today and wait for tomorrow,too bad,I can't make it at this moment. Remembered this afternoon when my roomie Christ and I overslept our nap and came late for lab session. Luckily,our instructor didn't really realized it. Yea,perhaps I slept too much this afternoon. Yes,it's again a mixture of feelings,uncertainty. The incident might conjures nothing with what I'm feeling but to answer this question is not as easy as popping it out suddenly from my little mind...have you been very2 honest with yourself Jethro? I'm so pointless. Ah,I should have my guitar with me now,strum a few chords,repeat em one by one until a song softly speak to me and then my so common vocal sound will join the music that is about to start. Too bad again,I don't know where my guitar is,I hope it is safe with someone who really appreciate the sounds hummed by that old piece of carved wood. Or maybe I should listen to any songs from my MP3 player,the songs in that very device,which I know so well could probably light up this very dark heart. Of songs which I know when the phases change,how long the ritenuto is played,how annoying can some high pitching been tried to be achieved,how some notes are very well pronounced,how some group of instruments playing the same running notes don't really run together,how do some singer perfectly hit every notes in his song. Yes,I know em that much. Now where is that MP3 player...??? This is just not so good. I think someone have stolen it. That stealer wouldn't know how much does that small device means to me. It would never be the same as buying a new one. It really has a very high sentimental value that only I could understand. I perhaps act really normal,but the absence of that very object really HURTS me. If it is really stolen,then...you better read very CAREFULLY if you stole it. For what reason you stole it is because you want to fill up your soul with whatever music is in you. Behold,you steal it from me,you are torturing my soul. I am not begging for your mercy,I don't need mercy from a very pity stealer like you. And this as I wish shall happen to you,that your soul be so unclean,that you will suffer in a way or another and your ego shall keep you to endure your suffering so that the pain you feel will last longer and multiply. That you shall perish as my soul are tortured. BUT,this is just not God's way,it's just my very painful scream from inside that you shall never understand. Behold dear stealer,God will grant you blessings or punishment according to his very own judgement. I will try at my very highest hatred to forgive whoever you are and yes,still hoping you will kindly in your fear or lameness try to find a way to return me back my MP3 secretly. I will save some little faith for the return of it. Don't you feel guilty??? You know better. :)

Friends. :)

Have you ever run through a personality test? Or perhaps been through those applications in Facebook that tests your personality,the true you. Or maybe those applications are just fooling you around. Well if you have been through them there's a section testing if you're the kind of person who loves having many friends but your relationships with em' are just that shallow. You know,you hang out,do things together,being crazy together and that's it. You don't talk much bout your feelings,bout your problems,your views,your very personal stuff. But yes you do have a lot of friends. Or can I say you are a people of the social.

And there's another type who don't really favor in shallow relationships. They like to have a very deep bond with their friends or just a friend. Not really into accepting the idea of having so many people around,doing stuff together with A LOT of people. Really into talking bout their feelings,more on pouring the feelings to their friend. A very close friend. You are not really into socializing.

But personally from my side,I believe everyone posses both of the above characters except that on which one they are more to. I am more on to the SECOND one.

Now shall I ask you,if you don't talk much with your friends,personal talks...how would you know them even better? Yes,the word is communication. Of course,we spend almost most of our times with our friends but with very little talking bout your feelings and hearing from the other sides can you afford to know him/her really from the inside out? It's like God and us. Let say we claim to believe in God and that we worship this God night and day but you know your God very little,isn't that just spooky? You are holding on to something you call God but you don't know who is He,what He likes,how does He do His work or better the sound of His VOICE. :) Same goes to you and your friend. Well,perhaps some of us think it's just not that important to have that heart to heart talk,to know each other more and to know what's really in your friends heart. To know what do they really mean when they say something,when they update their statuses in Facebook,to really understand why do they listen to certain songs at certain times. It's all about communication. Guessing what are they feeling sounds good but never better.

I have a lot of friends whom I really want to know more,whom I want to have a very deep bond with. But some of us are born to not really into those things as I said,the first type of person. There's nothing wrong being either the first one or the second one,both are cool. There are friends that I selfishly want to have only for myself. Weird? Yes or maybe no,I don't care what others will say,I am so. But yeah,that's maybe just insane,and that's explain if are my friend and there are times I'm cold with you for no reasonable cause it's the time I'm in such a pain to see you with our other friends and not me. What am I thinking when you're so? I am not going to force you to become less close with them,that's just childish. I would on the other side slowly or drastically pull myself out of the circle. That is into stop being close with you. And just being another very ordinary friend looking from outside of the circle. That might makes no sense at all but as it was,the second type of person. You just have to accept other's nature,with all due respect.

A mixture of feelings.

It's a mixture of feeling. You don't know whether you're happy or not and perhaps that's explains why sometimes I'm in an overwhelming silence. I don't know what I should do or better how I should react to my surrounding. I am perhaps equal in showing and hiding my feelings. Good example would be when I dislike someone. I would show you with everything I have how your presence in my sight really ANNOYED me. I guess you should be thankful when I treat you so,I'm just being honest to you. :)

And yes,it's such a lameness to have the word 'love' as your blog name but you talk about disliking someone. Will I ask now,who among you when you dislike someone or should I say hate so abundantly but still pretend that you like that unfortunate person and in his/her absence only then you express the hatred you posses. I DO. Let's be truthful.

Thus,shall I ask you now,which of the two would you prefer to be treated to? Mine will always be the first one. How about you? You know better. Cheers!